When I woke up, I didn't even do my normal thinking about the day and thinking about how I will stay away from porn. Well that silly unfounded confidence brought me down. It has been four days since I last looked, and I find that pretty pathetic that I can't go for longer.
So what did I learn about January the 16, 2009's failure? Not to be over confident.
And that brings me to another question, is it a failure, or just another step in overcoming this deadly addiction? I think its a bit of both. I learn from my mistakes, I feel beaten down, I feel horrible, but after I start thinking about what I did wrong I feel restored, I feel renewed with a new passion and vigor to beat this disease.
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