Well, defeat, starting again, haven't posted?

I feel kind of bad I haven't posted recently- then again, I wonder if anyone even reads this? :)

Then again, its more of something for myself to keep me accountable... 

About accountability- I do have partners that help me ;)

I kind of am wondering if it is even possible to quit? I mean I know it is, but I just feel so defeated. 

Today it started out normally- I went the weekend without anything but just kind of like failed today. I kind of go for a couple days fall back into it. 

To me that is a definition of an addiction ;). I'm starting a new workout program- 90 whole days of it- I'm thinking maybe every day I do the program I can't look at porn- hopefully it will help set me on the right track. :)